Kinda keen for a quiet night in..

The world is on its head…
And I am on a constant state of change and progression. 

Rides and heavy music go so good together.

I don’t know how to get an early night..
I plan to, yet it never seems to happen.
I wish I was more productive with my time spent out of work lately, instead of just being rundown.
At least then I could justify the nights, making the most of my time.
 

So its 1am, and I’m still awake. This is probably part of the reason I get so lethargic through the days. That and the monotonous life of the 925. I go to work and come home uninspired and unfulfilled a lot of the time. At times it feels like my heart is spread to thin, like I just put a little bit of effort into different areas of my life, but never really focus my energy on to one aspect. I’d like to change that, it’s something I’ve been saying to myself for a long time. Tomorrow’s a new day and its time I got back on the front foot and started living. Not that I haven’t been living, it’s more that I’ve been stuck in this perpetual standstill, that has been dragging me down.
The past two weekends have been amazing, and spent with great friends. I guess thats a start, but lack of friends has never really been the problem.
Getting inspired and relighting fires.
But now I think its best if I get some sleep. 

But we can change ourselves.

A lot of the time lately I have been genuinely unenthused, mainly due to with the 925 life. There have been other things on my mind also, but none more pressing than this.
This weekend was one of the best weekends I’ve had in a while. I didn’t get asked to work on Saturday so I took the whole day to relax, catch up on sleep.
Early Saturday night I had a work mates 30th. It was great to see so many old work mates, as we’ve had quite a lot of people quit this year. It was good to catch up with everyone out of work and just relax. After this I went to see The Swellers and they didn’t disappoint. I’ve wanted to see them for a while now.
Today the weather was great, and so were the fights. Lounging around with Dez and Maddie all day was great. After the UFC we hit the park, lazed in the sun,  and caught a couple of James’ bike polo games.
Time well spent. I’m looking forward to the warmer weather and more weekends like this.
Good friends and good times. 

Got home
went to sleep
woke up
plans fell through
talk to me

I think I’m going to start to do a Vinyl and Merch documentary on here…
Something to do. 

I feel like I’m somewhere between growing up, and staying forever young.

Obsessed…
Trying to get that feeling back
It’s on the tip of my tongue
It’s not that I feel bad
Things just aren’t the same
And I just can’t relate
I know I’m not the only one who feels like this. 

I need to get more sleep

Sick
Tired
Uninspired